November 2025: Emotions of a First Time Father

November 1

The tension between us did not ease today; if anything, it grew heavier. We had planned to go grocery shopping together, but your mother left while I was in the middle of my prayer. When I called her, she said she thought I was not interested in going with her. Hearing that only deepened my frustration. After that, we barely spoke for the rest of the day.

November 2

The uneasiness between us still remains, and we are speaking only when necessary. Later, I called your nani and explained everything to her. She listened with understanding and reassured me that she would do her best to calm your mother and help ease the situation. I pray that time, patience, and kindness will soften our hearts again.

November 4

Your mother left for Halle today.

November 6

I think the ice has finally begun to melt. The distance between us has made us realize how difficult it is to live without one another. We spoke on the phone today, not about anything serious, just an ordinary conversation, but it felt comforting. Sometimes, even the simplest words can begin to heal what silence has made heavy.

November 9

My days are passing by rather boring and uneventful without your mother. Yes… I really miss her.

November 13

Today is one of those days that brings the sweetest surprises. Your mother was supposed to take a train from Halle, but she missed it by just one minute. When I heard that she wasn’t coming, I felt deeply disappointed. After the tension we had over the past two weeks, I had been eagerly waiting to see her today. I was so upset that I didn’t say much, just texted her to go back to her flat and look for a ticket for the next day.

I returned home from the office and started cooking dinner, still carrying that quiet sadness with me. Then, suddenly, I heard the sound of keys jingling at the front door. The door opened, and there she was.

I let out a surprised, almost silly sound and ran toward her, hugging her tightly. For a moment, I couldn’t believe my eyes. What actually happened was that after missing her original train, your mother didn’t go back to her flat. Instead, she took a regional train and came all the way back. Who would have thought she could surprise me like that?

November 15

We had a quiet and pleasant Saturday together. We went out for a bit of shopping, bought a pair of winter shoes for your mother, and later enjoyed dinner at a Thai restaurant.

November 17

Today we had our third appointment with the gynecologist, and it was yet another exciting milestone for us. Your mother went through a test called NIPT, followed by another ultrasound. Today, I saw you for the second time.

The ultrasound image felt like a little greeting from you, as if you were saying hi to us from inside your mother’s womb. In that small, grainy photograph, you already felt so real, so close, and so deeply loved.

November 18

Your mom was supposed to leave for Halle today, but her class got cancelled, so she stayed in Frankfurt. Yaay!

November 22

We went to lunch together with some friends at an Iranian restaurant. The food was very good. I am thinking of cooking Iranian cuisine at home.

November 25

Her class got cancelled again, so she is staying a few more days in Frankfurt.

November 27

I want to write a little about your mother’s journey since her pregnancy began. So far, everything has been going well, alhamdulillah. She has experienced some changes, like nausea, but I believe these are all normal parts of pregnancy.

Her taste in food has changed quite a bit. She used to love fish, but now she can’t even tolerate its smell. Chicken is also off the list these days. I try to cook most of our meals myself so she doesn’t have to deal with raw meat or fish.

The one thing she eats with great appetite is eggs. She now eats two to three eggs a day, which is much more than she ever did before. Because of that, I jokingly call her Ummul Bayd, the mother of eggs, and tell her that her child might look like an egg when he is born. Please don’t hold this silly dad joke against me when you grow up.

What matters most is that your mother is doing well, and we are endlessly thankful to Allah for taking care of both of you.